I have a case of growing pains. :-(
I am leaving the past behind, and am on the brink of a new life, a college diploma, my first job, new relationships, new friendships and stronger family ties. It is hard for me to transition from old to new, but with the requirement of independence and strength, I am bound to come out of hard times with my head held high. I hope, at least.
Clinging to what is familiar has become somewhat regrettable, although I don’t like to regret; my most recent and significant relationship just ended, and I have found myself feeling alone. Which is scary. I can’t help but wonder what will come next, who will be there as I start to feel better and am less lonely.
It is an optimistic thing, a scary thing, being in a position in life so exciting but so sad. My favorite taxi driver, Ted, said the last time I saw him that you don’t have good days without bad ones. So, in contemplating how to make the best out of today, I think I will focus on my freedom. I can apply to jobs anywhere in the country, and can take this broken relationship and learn and grow from it.